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THIS SITE HAS MOVED
Please note that the official Markus Ng Memorial Website has moved to http://markusng.last-memories.com due to hosting problems with this old site.
Please leave any new messages on the new site instead.
Please update your bookmarks and help spread the word about the move.
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Projek Kalsom's Award named after Markus Ng
February 8, 2009
Projek Kalsom has named its Best Facilitator Award after Markus Ng. The 'Markus Ng Award' has been named in recognition of Markus Ng's contributions to the project.
Markus was an active member of the Kalsom family, participating in Kalsom 12 and 13 as facilitator and committee member. He was also the creator of the facebook group for Projek Kalsom.
Projek Kalsom is a motivational camp held yearly for Form 4 students who have excelled in their studies but come from less fortunate backgrounds. It is run by Malaysian students enrolled in universities in the UK and Ireland.
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Markus on Apprehension
October 7, 2008
What is success, if not without the possibility of failure? Acceptance, without rejection?
Living entails making decisions; choosing implies uncertainty; uncertainty, risk.
What is success if not without the possibility of failure? Acceptance, without rejection?
To live necessitates the triumph of hope over apprehension.
And what is hope? My hope is in dying to live.
Death I fear you not.
In God I trust.
Markus Ng
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Lyrics: I Want To Want To
by Markus Ng
God I don't know, I don’t know
I really want to, but it doesn't show
My projections, my convictions
Muddled mess, so much confusion
I don’t know, I don’t know.
What do I say when you've heard it all
Excuses, lies, remorse, more lies
Yet still I dare to mouth them words
I'm sorry for how much it hurts
and disappoints
I'm not perfect,
but I’m gonna try
seek the truth and apply
I want to honestly repent
Give you my 100%
I want to want to love You
as You love me too
I want to want to live life
as You'd want me to
I want to want to honour You
More than anything I want to want to
I'not there yet, but I'm trying
Pushing on, oh I'm striving
Wait for me, I'm arriving
So help me God.
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Lyrics: Feeling Blue
by Markus Ng
It's late night and it's not alright
but still the stars are so bright
A melody it keeps me awake
as it plays i fall and I break
I wanna close my eyes and cry
kiss the blues goodbye
I wanna run but there's nowhere to run to
But still I go and I look for my pair of shoes
So I run and I run
Without knowing where I'm gone
I'm all weary from this aimless journey
that I've begun
So I stop and I turn
looking for a lesson to learn
there's definitely something I missed
life should be more than this
It's just as if I'm afraid I'm losing
losing all my pride
But it seems there's more than pride I'm missing
my grip on life is loosening
I really wish I still was a child
back then I could truly smile
No worries about expectations
Such liberty I did not need to run
but still I ran and I ran
without knowing where I'd land
Was all weary from that aimless journey
that I began
So I stopped and I turned
I see the lesson to be learned
there was definitely something I missed
life was more than this
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Lyrics: Strife
by Markus Ng
Sometimes you have to be broken
to know what it means to be full
sometimes you gotta fall
to know what it means to stand up tall
so when you're ever there
when life seems unfair
when you've hit the floor
remember, the only way to go is up
so grit your teeth
clench your fists
one thing for sure
you're gonna come out stronger
fix your eyes on the hill
for wisdom, strength and will
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Lyrics: The Coward's Run
by Markus Ng
Oh how it envelopes me
Makes me shift uncomfortably
Emptiness; it shivers through my bones
So, so, cold
I'll do all I can to distract myself
Honest thoughts I shelve
Deny the self pity
I won't let it get to me
Like the coward, I run
Heart weighs me down like a ton
Tires me so
So tired of waiting, tired of trusting
Take the quick fix
Like the coward, I run
Heart weighs me down like a ton
Wasn't long before I stopped
To my knees I dropped
I do wanna leave
I wanna believe
I wanna live
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Lyrics: Goodbye
by Markus Ng
Sitting silent waiting but the moment never comes
I wait, I wait
I try to get it off my chest
but time again I failed to say, to say
I love you from the very deepest bottom of my heart
If I were to write an essay for you
that's how I will start
before I say "I need you", tell you how I
wanna grow old with you
"I'll be the man you want me to be" too
My thoughts are filled with memories from the moment we first met
happy, and sad
I'll miss those times we spent together,
even empty talk and laughter
If only we could be together
But God seems to have another plan
something I don't understand
The countdown has began
If there is no tomorrow for me
I'll never get a chance to tell this story
how I loved you so
how I'd always wanted you to know
I love you from the very deepest bottom of my heart
If I were to write an essay for you
that's how I will start
before I say "I need you", tell you how I
wanna grow old with you
"I'll be the man you want me to be" too
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Lyrics: Blahblehblue
by Markus Ng
I laze in the park, I gaze in the dark
Got no mood to get up and do work needs to be done
Ooo... scoobydoobeedoo...
I get up from the pillow, I look out of my window
Dusty mosquito nets
That's just so sad, so sad
I think I’m slowly going mad
Well don’t you?
Well I tried everything
Picked up my guitar and sing
Went to volunteer to help out the tsunami victims
Tried to pick up all those self-help books
Tried improving on my good looks
Took those long and aimless drives
Played football, sweating like a pig
Tried to teach my dogs some tricks
Tried to write a song so I could pick up chicks
[chuckle]
Well, that last thing there is not true. Anyway what I'm trying to get at is I tried everything but I never really found what I was looking for and you know, sometimes in life you search so hard to find some things but in the end, some things find you instead. Let me just say life hasn't really been the same since. And now going back to the song...
Sun is shining higher
My days are looking brighter
Gloom’s no longer over me
'Cause I be- (4x)
'Cause I... be-believe
Sun is shining higher
My days are looking brighter
Gloom’s no longer over me
'Cause I believe
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Here Today - Ali McB feat. Nicholas Pang on guitar
If in time I had to go
I'd want you to know
If you'd lived another day
There's so much I'd yet to say
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you lived a thousand lives
and more just touching heartaches
Here today, gone tomorrow
But the faces that you lighted
know the smiles will never fade
Never knew how well you sang
Never knew you at all
But the night you let me stay
You touched my life in your own way
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